007 - ignore sad feelings, embrace cats

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[ When was the last time that Souji was able to just sit down and enjoy himself? To have fun without having to worry about anything else? If he was really honest with himself, probably not since the divorce. After all, the divorce was what kick started all of these feelings of isolation and resentment. All of those ugly little feelings and thoughts that he tried to bury so deeply within him so he could just put up a smile and pretend that everything's all right. He knows that, in hindsight, he really should have talked to Yu about these things... To tell him about how lonely he felt and how disappointed he was with their mother, but he didn't want to burden him. He didn't want Yu to worry, while they were children and while they were teenagers. So even here now, while he's sitting on the floor with his brother, just inches away from him, he forgets about all of those feelings and worries. Instead, what does he do? ]

[ He sits on their living floor and plays with the ten new cats that they've stolen-- ahem, that they're caring for, holding one in his hands and having another in his lap. ]

We should convert the study into a room just for the cats.

[ ... Yeah. ]

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[ It's something he isn't sure if he should let himself dwell on.

For years he's worried after Souji, feeling a sick weight in his gut whenever he's thought about what his brother was going through, especially in comparison to his own relative stability. He was alone almost all the time, their father rarely there, but at least he knew. At least he was told that would be coming. But Souji... even if he tried to be cheerful about everything that went wrong with her mother, Yu at least knew it had to be hurting him.

After all, Yu knew how he'd feel in Souji's shoes.

But now they're here. Together for the first time in years, and even allowed to stay here (as long as their parents need them to). And at the very least, they'll both be 18 soon, in just a few months. Once that happens ... they can make the arrangements to do whatever they want, as long as their parents don't disapprove, right?

Recollé U is a good school.

So for now he's trying to do exactly the same thing as Souji. Forget all the awful things they went through and just be happy about being here with his brother - and these ten cats they borrowed.

Yu is lying on the floor, his knees bent, but his back flat against the carpet so that a cat can curl up on his chest. Said cat is purring loudly as he pets it. ]

I think so, too. Besides, their calming presence would help me focus.

[ will they study in the cat room anyway

probably ]